A collection of original poetry from a Vietnam War Veteran, David Rose, who is diagnosed with PTSD by the Veterans Administration. Some of these poems are very personal and dark while others are lighter, but I wanted to make them available to the public as an educational tool to everyone who is interested. The poems are copyrighted, but can be used for any nonprofit reason with credits. It is my sincere wish that someone will find these heart-felt writings useful.
Saturday, June 28, 2014
3 Glorious Minutes of Freedom
During the war we all got together to smoke dope
It was every bodies vehicle to cope
We used an empty quonset hut room
Set up a big stereo with lots of boom
Each night after supper we'd all gather 'round
Pass the joints and crank up the sound
Our theme song was "Our House" by CS&N
We'd play it again and again and again
Sometimes I'd stand up and conduct the song
Everybody in the room would sing along
One night recently I was driving a four hour road trip
"Our House" came of the radio and I thought I would flip
I sang at the top of my voice and pounded on the dash
Jumped in my seat and surprised I didn't crash
I laughed and cried at the same time
For a few minutes there I felt sublime
I became so emotional I pulled over by this big tree
For a few glorious minutes I was free, I was free, I was free.
David Rose - Vietnam Veteran - Combat Medic
Friday, June 27, 2014
D-Toured
Was cruising along life's smooth road
Until my coping vehicle slowed
Encountered a PTSD-Tour
This side trip wasn't in the brochure
This detour is rocky, dusty and curvy
Has me going all topsy-turvy
Hope this detour road is not very long
The wide smooth blacktop is where I belong
David Rose - Vietnam Veteran - Combat Medic
Tuesday, June 24, 2014
It's Complicated
It's rather amazing how complicated PTSD is
There is a lot to consider in this tricky biz
I have memories of war fused in my brain
I still miss my buddies who were slain
My fight or flight response has been in play for decades
Then there's that intrusive thought that pervades
I have survivors guilt that hurts a lot
With all of the emotions that it brought
Became addicted to adrenaline in that damn war
In civilian life I chose to continue the gore
Did all kinds of things to feed that habit
Stayed busy running around like a rabbit
All kinds of chemicals circulating around
There is the man made compound
Can't forget the endogenous high
That can also make you fly
There's hyper vigilance and anxiety
There is avoidance of society
Also anger, boredom and grief
Disrespect for the Commander-in-Chief
Throw in the fact that I didn't know what was wrong
No wonder I didn't know where I belong
All of this sure did mess up my life
Now I know why I couldn't keep a wife
David Rose - Vietnam Veteran - Combat Medic
There is a lot to consider in this tricky biz
I have memories of war fused in my brain
I still miss my buddies who were slain
My fight or flight response has been in play for decades
Then there's that intrusive thought that pervades
I have survivors guilt that hurts a lot
With all of the emotions that it brought
Became addicted to adrenaline in that damn war
In civilian life I chose to continue the gore
Did all kinds of things to feed that habit
Stayed busy running around like a rabbit
All kinds of chemicals circulating around
There is the man made compound
Can't forget the endogenous high
That can also make you fly
There's hyper vigilance and anxiety
There is avoidance of society
Also anger, boredom and grief
Disrespect for the Commander-in-Chief
Throw in the fact that I didn't know what was wrong
No wonder I didn't know where I belong
All of this sure did mess up my life
Now I know why I couldn't keep a wife
David Rose - Vietnam Veteran - Combat Medic
One Reason I Live By Night
One reason I live by night and sleep by day
Is so I can hear the birds at play
Listen to the video.
Started A New Happy Med Today
Started a new antidepressant from the VA.
Took it with a full supper today.
Doc said, "Take it with a full meal,
Because nausea is what you will feel."
Isn't that like eating a big breakfast before deep sea fishing?
As my head went over the rail, it was stable land I was wishing.
About four hours later the drug hit me
Experienced some reactions I didn't foresee
Felt like a big dark cloud moved in
Blocking a spot in the sky where the sun had been
My hands and face went numb
To this new med I had just succumb
"What's that you say?
I can't hear you till this ringing goes away."
Tried to stand up but sat right back down
Threw up because my head was spinning round
My pulse was 120 and my pressure was 154 over 103
Tell me again how this med is so good for me?
Tried to go to bed to get some rest
Couldn't do it for this thing pounding in my chest
My hands are trembling so much
These keys are tricky to touch
So when is the payoff for me
It's results I need to see
Do I need to wade through this four more weeks,
Before my doctor critiques?
So remind me again why I am taking this.
Oh yeah. So I can experience true bliss.
David Rose - Vietnam Veteran - Combat Medic
Took it with a full supper today.
Doc said, "Take it with a full meal,
Because nausea is what you will feel."
Isn't that like eating a big breakfast before deep sea fishing?
As my head went over the rail, it was stable land I was wishing.
About four hours later the drug hit me
Experienced some reactions I didn't foresee
Felt like a big dark cloud moved in
Blocking a spot in the sky where the sun had been
My hands and face went numb
To this new med I had just succumb
"What's that you say?
I can't hear you till this ringing goes away."
Tried to stand up but sat right back down
Threw up because my head was spinning round
My pulse was 120 and my pressure was 154 over 103
Tell me again how this med is so good for me?
Tried to go to bed to get some rest
Couldn't do it for this thing pounding in my chest
My hands are trembling so much
These keys are tricky to touch
So when is the payoff for me
It's results I need to see
Do I need to wade through this four more weeks,
Before my doctor critiques?
So remind me again why I am taking this.
Oh yeah. So I can experience true bliss.
David Rose - Vietnam Veteran - Combat Medic
Monday, June 23, 2014
I'm Not Afraid Of Death
I just realized that I am not afraid of death
What's so scary about taking your last breath
I've already experienced the worst terror of my life
Fear so thick I could cut it with a knife
So how much more hell could one life provide
Than a war in which I should have died
I've experienced heaven and I've experienced hell
Heaven is what I choose I know so well
David Rose - Vietnam Veteran - Combat Medic
What's so scary about taking your last breath
I've already experienced the worst terror of my life
Fear so thick I could cut it with a knife
So how much more hell could one life provide
Than a war in which I should have died
I've experienced heaven and I've experienced hell
Heaven is what I choose I know so well
David Rose - Vietnam Veteran - Combat Medic
Sunday, June 22, 2014
We All Live On The Same Rock
Everyone should see this picture of our earth
The perspective minimizes our girth
We should take care of the rock on which we live
Not take so much from it, instead we should give
If all people realized how small we are
It may reduce our differences by far
Should have cared for our home starting long ago
Take a real close look, there's no place else to go
David Rose - Vietnam Veteran - Combat Medic
The perspective minimizes our girth
We should take care of the rock on which we live
Not take so much from it, instead we should give
If all people realized how small we are
It may reduce our differences by far
Should have cared for our home starting long ago
Take a real close look, there's no place else to go
David Rose - Vietnam Veteran - Combat Medic
Saturday, June 21, 2014
It's Been Nice Knowing Y'all
Starting a new drug today for major depressive disorder
The doctor said my thoughts are out of order
I'm not sure yet what to make of all this
I hope soon to be in true bliss
I looked up the side effects today
Not sure this drug is here to stay
This drug may be worse than the disease
I know it comes with no guarantees
I will have nausea and will be dizzy
I could sleep all day or run in a tizzy
I'll have dry mouth and constipation
Also headaches from the dehydration
Sounds bad huh, but that's not all
The sexual dysfunction sounds like a ball
This drug could even act in reverse
I could get a lot worse
Through all of these side effects I'm supposed to get happy
And not be so snappy
I hope this works well for the long haul
If not, it's been nice knowing y'all
David Rose - Vietnam Veteran - Combat Medic
The doctor said my thoughts are out of order
I'm not sure yet what to make of all this
I hope soon to be in true bliss
I looked up the side effects today
Not sure this drug is here to stay
This drug may be worse than the disease
I know it comes with no guarantees
I will have nausea and will be dizzy
I could sleep all day or run in a tizzy
I'll have dry mouth and constipation
Also headaches from the dehydration
Sounds bad huh, but that's not all
The sexual dysfunction sounds like a ball
This drug could even act in reverse
I could get a lot worse
Through all of these side effects I'm supposed to get happy
And not be so snappy
I hope this works well for the long haul
If not, it's been nice knowing y'all
David Rose - Vietnam Veteran - Combat Medic
Job Description for PTSD Self-Manager
Job Description
Title:
PTSD Self-Manager
Job Summary:
Manages all day to day and minute by minute feelings and emotions as pertaining to any symptoms of the PTSD disease including but not limited to: monitoring for realistic threats vs. self-perceived threats, avoiding external stresses, monitoring and adjusting anxiety levels, taking meds as prescribed.
Key Responsibilities:
1. Monitor and ration conversation and interaction time to not become overloaded too quickly. Spread yourself thin throughout the day in order to last all day. Become overloaded and over whelmed too early in the day and be finished early.
2. Monitor and evaluate potential threats around you at all times. Be aware of people, animals, situations of threat, sounds, smells, touch on the ground, in the air and on the water.
3. Prepare to respond at a split seconds notice. Have a safe place to land at any given point in your immediate area. This includes being aware of all exit doors and windows, position yourself to view entry and exit points at all times. Have a place of safe cover preplanned within quick reach should the need arise.
4. Reduce frustrating tasks to a minimum. Don't take on more than your level of concentration can handle.
5. Locate a happy safe place that can be used as a refuge when the stresses become too much to endure.
6. Manage potential stresses to keep stress to an minimum. Use avoidance as a means of safe survival tools.
7. Take meds as prescribed to manage disease chemically.
8. Avoid people and situations that may cause a trigger.
9. Avoid people to protect them from you and you from them. It's easier to have no relationship than to have a relationship that is misunderstood.
10. Avoid triggers that may generate nightmares and intrusive thoughts.
Minimum Job Requirements and KSA's:
1. Education: it is important to independent study your disease of PTSD. Also contact your local VA office and Vet Center to learn of available services. Be aware of how the VA system works in order to navigate it properly. Set up and attend counseling sessions in order to better understand yourself and your disease.
2. Experience: Experience, practice, trial and error is necessary to manage the disease. It requires a lot of experience, patience and understanding to effectively manage PTSD. Experience is very important.
3. Special Skills: honesty, foresight, patience, effective anger management skills, willingness to be secluded, self-survival skills
4. Certifications and Licenses: certifiably crazy
Physical Limitations:
Could have sleepless nights and/or days because of nightmares. Should be able to walk and do minimal exercise daily to aid in stress reduction.
Relationships:
The PTSD victim reports mainly to him/herself. Occasionally doctors and therapists will give you assignments to complete and turn in. No one reports to his position.
Compensation:
Your payoff for following this job description is a happier more stable life.
Title:
PTSD Self-Manager
Job Summary:
Manages all day to day and minute by minute feelings and emotions as pertaining to any symptoms of the PTSD disease including but not limited to: monitoring for realistic threats vs. self-perceived threats, avoiding external stresses, monitoring and adjusting anxiety levels, taking meds as prescribed.
Key Responsibilities:
1. Monitor and ration conversation and interaction time to not become overloaded too quickly. Spread yourself thin throughout the day in order to last all day. Become overloaded and over whelmed too early in the day and be finished early.
2. Monitor and evaluate potential threats around you at all times. Be aware of people, animals, situations of threat, sounds, smells, touch on the ground, in the air and on the water.
3. Prepare to respond at a split seconds notice. Have a safe place to land at any given point in your immediate area. This includes being aware of all exit doors and windows, position yourself to view entry and exit points at all times. Have a place of safe cover preplanned within quick reach should the need arise.
4. Reduce frustrating tasks to a minimum. Don't take on more than your level of concentration can handle.
5. Locate a happy safe place that can be used as a refuge when the stresses become too much to endure.
6. Manage potential stresses to keep stress to an minimum. Use avoidance as a means of safe survival tools.
7. Take meds as prescribed to manage disease chemically.
8. Avoid people and situations that may cause a trigger.
9. Avoid people to protect them from you and you from them. It's easier to have no relationship than to have a relationship that is misunderstood.
10. Avoid triggers that may generate nightmares and intrusive thoughts.
Minimum Job Requirements and KSA's:
1. Education: it is important to independent study your disease of PTSD. Also contact your local VA office and Vet Center to learn of available services. Be aware of how the VA system works in order to navigate it properly. Set up and attend counseling sessions in order to better understand yourself and your disease.
2. Experience: Experience, practice, trial and error is necessary to manage the disease. It requires a lot of experience, patience and understanding to effectively manage PTSD. Experience is very important.
3. Special Skills: honesty, foresight, patience, effective anger management skills, willingness to be secluded, self-survival skills
4. Certifications and Licenses: certifiably crazy
Physical Limitations:
Could have sleepless nights and/or days because of nightmares. Should be able to walk and do minimal exercise daily to aid in stress reduction.
Relationships:
The PTSD victim reports mainly to him/herself. Occasionally doctors and therapists will give you assignments to complete and turn in. No one reports to his position.
Compensation:
Your payoff for following this job description is a happier more stable life.
Friday, June 20, 2014
Free: Living Heart Donor Available
I think I qualify as a living heart donor
My heart might like a new owner
My heart is still good for pumping blood
But instead of lub dub, it sounds more like thud thud
Here is what my massage therapist said
She said, "Your heart chakra is dead"
"Your capacity for love is gone."
"Your emotional bank account is overdrawn."
So if I'm not using all of my heart
Give it to someone who needs a spare part
It's a good heart with lots of love to give
It has lots of ticks on it with many more years to live
So if you want this old heart of mine
Just call 555.9999
David Rose - Vietnam Veteran - Combat Medic
My heart might like a new owner
My heart is still good for pumping blood
But instead of lub dub, it sounds more like thud thud
Here is what my massage therapist said
She said, "Your heart chakra is dead"
"Your capacity for love is gone."
"Your emotional bank account is overdrawn."
So if I'm not using all of my heart
Give it to someone who needs a spare part
It's a good heart with lots of love to give
It has lots of ticks on it with many more years to live
So if you want this old heart of mine
Just call 555.9999
David Rose - Vietnam Veteran - Combat Medic
Wednesday, June 18, 2014
Some Wounds Never Heal
Lots of ways to be wounded in war
Bullets, grenades, rockets and so much more
Some are mortally wounded and die right away
Take a big hit and don't last the day
Others are wounded but survive
Takes some time but they revive
There's a wound that doesn't bleed and you can't see
Just ask a few questions and you will agree
This wound stays with you for life
Infects, festers and causes real strife
Some survive it
Some commit
Regardless of the type wound you receive
War will kill you eventually I believe
David Rose - Vietnam Veteran - Combat Medic
Inspired by Dr. Jackson and the Vet Center slogan
Monday, June 16, 2014
Where Is PTSD Safe?
Where is PTSD safe?
Should my own home be a chafe?
My home needs a PTSD safe room,
One that's free of gloom and doom.
My father and former spouse live with me.
When I come home, CNN is blaring on the TV.
Wolfe is on some war rant about who knows what.
The sound of automatic weapons hits me in the gut.
I've already had two hours of VA group,
Then come home to all of this poop.
Most people are desensitized to war action.
I know I'm of a minute fraction.
My place is small but they each have their own room.
Having no safe place to go is what makes me fume.
So I sit in my one living room chair,
Put in my ear pods of music, close my eyes and stare.
I need a room with control over what I see and hear.
A place where all my bad thoughts will disappear.
I need a refuge where I can meditate and pray.
Where really is PTSD safe anyway?
David Rose - Vietnam Veteran - Combat Medic
Should my own home be a chafe?
My home needs a PTSD safe room,
One that's free of gloom and doom.
My father and former spouse live with me.
When I come home, CNN is blaring on the TV.
Wolfe is on some war rant about who knows what.
The sound of automatic weapons hits me in the gut.
I've already had two hours of VA group,
Then come home to all of this poop.
Most people are desensitized to war action.
I know I'm of a minute fraction.
My place is small but they each have their own room.
Having no safe place to go is what makes me fume.
So I sit in my one living room chair,
Put in my ear pods of music, close my eyes and stare.
I need a room with control over what I see and hear.
A place where all my bad thoughts will disappear.
I need a refuge where I can meditate and pray.
Where really is PTSD safe anyway?
David Rose - Vietnam Veteran - Combat Medic
Saturday, June 14, 2014
Inside To Stay
I took a personality test one time years ago
Personalities like mine are almost zero
Yeah, I'm introverted but so what
I won't run around like some nut
With me it's not about being odd
It's about creating a facade
I have junk in my head I don't want you to see
I'm protecting me from you and you from me
You may never learn who I am
After all that war in Vietnam
One wife asked if I was a spy
Of if I worked with the CIA on the sly
Don't take it personal if I just walk away
There are words I don't want you to hear me say
You can study my finger prints in detail
And you won't learn what my thoughts entail
You can search my home everywhere
And you will come up bare
Read my CV all the way through
And you won't find a single clue
Follow me around day and night
You won't discover a single hint of my plight
Ask my friends. They'll say I'm cool
They'll say I'm no fool
There are two parts to me it seems
I don't want to carry the troubled one to extremes
It's a lot better this way
My thoughts are inside to stay
David Rose - Vietnam Veteran - Combat Medic
Personalities like mine are almost zero
Yeah, I'm introverted but so what
I won't run around like some nut
With me it's not about being odd
It's about creating a facade
I have junk in my head I don't want you to see
I'm protecting me from you and you from me
You may never learn who I am
After all that war in Vietnam
One wife asked if I was a spy
Of if I worked with the CIA on the sly
Don't take it personal if I just walk away
There are words I don't want you to hear me say
You can study my finger prints in detail
And you won't learn what my thoughts entail
You can search my home everywhere
And you will come up bare
Read my CV all the way through
And you won't find a single clue
Follow me around day and night
You won't discover a single hint of my plight
Ask my friends. They'll say I'm cool
They'll say I'm no fool
There are two parts to me it seems
I don't want to carry the troubled one to extremes
It's a lot better this way
My thoughts are inside to stay
David Rose - Vietnam Veteran - Combat Medic
My Personal Definition of PTSD
As I read and study about Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD), I am finding very few definitions of PTSD. Many articles have a title stating that they are defining PTSD, but in reality they are simply describing the symptoms of PTSD. Even Wikipedia does not have a good definition of PTSD in my personal opinion.
I am by no means qualified professionally to write a definition for PTSD; however, I am a Vietnam War veteran who has been suffering from PTSD for forty-five years and this is my personal unofficial definition of PTSD based on my own personal experiences and thoughts.
My Personal Definition of PTSD...
"PTSD is an anxiety-based mental and physical health disease that is initiated by a direct involvement in and/or observation of severe traumatic events in which the victims life is threatened. These traumatic events are permanently embedded in the brain to create chronic symptomatic effects and occasional immediate acute recall when a trigger similar to the original traumatic event is experienced. The PTSD sufferer lives in a constant heightened state of vigilance, involuntarily generated by the brain as a means of self-perceived, self-survival necessity. When triggers are experienced, the PTSD victim will engage in involuntary extreme self-protective response actions to protect him/herself and/or others in the area. Even though the PTSD disease is based on and born from the long-term recollection of past traumatic experiences, the disease is really about the anticipated anxieties of self-perceived dangers in the immediate future.
David Rose - Vietnam Veteran - Combat Medic
I am by no means qualified professionally to write a definition for PTSD; however, I am a Vietnam War veteran who has been suffering from PTSD for forty-five years and this is my personal unofficial definition of PTSD based on my own personal experiences and thoughts.
My Personal Definition of PTSD...
"PTSD is an anxiety-based mental and physical health disease that is initiated by a direct involvement in and/or observation of severe traumatic events in which the victims life is threatened. These traumatic events are permanently embedded in the brain to create chronic symptomatic effects and occasional immediate acute recall when a trigger similar to the original traumatic event is experienced. The PTSD sufferer lives in a constant heightened state of vigilance, involuntarily generated by the brain as a means of self-perceived, self-survival necessity. When triggers are experienced, the PTSD victim will engage in involuntary extreme self-protective response actions to protect him/herself and/or others in the area. Even though the PTSD disease is based on and born from the long-term recollection of past traumatic experiences, the disease is really about the anticipated anxieties of self-perceived dangers in the immediate future.
David Rose - Vietnam Veteran - Combat Medic
Friday, June 13, 2014
Anger and PTSD
PTSD doesn't make my anger
Anger makes my PTSD
David Rose - Vietnam Veteran - Combat Medic
Inspired by a Vietnam War brother
Anger makes my PTSD
David Rose - Vietnam Veteran - Combat Medic
Inspired by a Vietnam War brother
Thursday, June 12, 2014
Not Yet
I'm not yet where I want to be with this PTSD.
But thank God,
My PTSD is not where it used to be.
David Rose - Vietnam Veteran - Combat Medic
Inspired by Dr. Sandy McKenzie
But thank God,
My PTSD is not where it used to be.
David Rose - Vietnam Veteran - Combat Medic
Inspired by Dr. Sandy McKenzie
Thursday, June 5, 2014
The Poetic Police
I enjoy writing these lines
and it's good therapy too
I enjoy poetry of all kinds
It gives me something to do
Something I have learned since I started
Is that the poetic police will find you
They are all being good hearted
They all want to do a review
One said, "I'll take a quick look
And let you know what I think."
I'm like, "OK you can read my book.
Just remember. You're not my shrink."
He said, "I think they are awfully good"
Isn't that one of those oxymoron things?
I don't want to be misunderstood.
I like all the support this brings.
He said, " Your poems have casual authenticity."
What does that mean?
I know I write with simplicity.
I want to keep my writings routine.
Another person said, "I will proof read for you"
"I will send you the corrected version."
I really appreciate all that they do.
They've been helpful since I started this poetic excursion.
I'm really not trying to win any awards now.
I just jot down my thoughts as they arise,
To try to help my veteran brothers somehow.
I'm not trying to win the Nobel Peace Prize.
I really don't care if I am missing a little dot here or there,
Or that little curvy one they call a comma.
At least the poetic police really do care.
Next, I will probably hear from Barack Obama.
David Rose - Vietnam Veteran - Combat Medic
and it's good therapy too
I enjoy poetry of all kinds
It gives me something to do
Something I have learned since I started
Is that the poetic police will find you
They are all being good hearted
They all want to do a review
One said, "I'll take a quick look
And let you know what I think."
I'm like, "OK you can read my book.
Just remember. You're not my shrink."
He said, "I think they are awfully good"
Isn't that one of those oxymoron things?
I don't want to be misunderstood.
I like all the support this brings.
He said, " Your poems have casual authenticity."
What does that mean?
I know I write with simplicity.
I want to keep my writings routine.
Another person said, "I will proof read for you"
"I will send you the corrected version."
I really appreciate all that they do.
They've been helpful since I started this poetic excursion.
I'm really not trying to win any awards now.
I just jot down my thoughts as they arise,
To try to help my veteran brothers somehow.
I'm not trying to win the Nobel Peace Prize.
I really don't care if I am missing a little dot here or there,
Or that little curvy one they call a comma.
At least the poetic police really do care.
Next, I will probably hear from Barack Obama.
David Rose - Vietnam Veteran - Combat Medic
Tuesday, June 3, 2014
Just Leave A Message
There is something I don't understand yet
Something about this PTSD I just can't get
That is why I can't follow a conversation
At least not for any reasonable duration
If somebody talks too fast there is no hope
I just stand there looking like a dope
I couldn't repeat what they said if I had to
I tried to listen but really don't have a clue
I think it has to do with my concentration
Not my friends quality of oration
There is a limit to how long I can stay in tune
When I reach my cap I'm finished too soon
I don't want to look like a fool
Don't want my friends to think I'm uncool
So I protect myself from them and them from me
Total seclusion is my self-surviving plea
It's not that I don't want to talk to you, I do
It's just frustrating for me to not connect with you
So if you want to talk, I'll give you a little presage
Call me and you will have to just leave a message
David Rose - Vietnam Veteran - Combat Medic
Something about this PTSD I just can't get
That is why I can't follow a conversation
At least not for any reasonable duration
If somebody talks too fast there is no hope
I just stand there looking like a dope
I couldn't repeat what they said if I had to
I tried to listen but really don't have a clue
I think it has to do with my concentration
Not my friends quality of oration
There is a limit to how long I can stay in tune
When I reach my cap I'm finished too soon
I don't want to look like a fool
Don't want my friends to think I'm uncool
So I protect myself from them and them from me
Total seclusion is my self-surviving plea
It's not that I don't want to talk to you, I do
It's just frustrating for me to not connect with you
So if you want to talk, I'll give you a little presage
Call me and you will have to just leave a message
David Rose - Vietnam Veteran - Combat Medic
Monday, June 2, 2014
My Sioux PTSD Ceremony
I
have
a soul
brother
who is a
Native American
shaman. He invited
me to come to Washington
to meet a tribal medicine man
named Yellowhawk who has successfully
treated PTSD for Vietnam vets. I spent a day
talking with Yellowhawk and he decided he would
like to perform a sweat lodge in my honor. We set
it up for the next day. A sweat lodge is a large air tight
dome that will hold about a half dozen people or so. Rocks
are heated outside in an open fire, carried inside and water
is poured over them to create steam. It works. The lodge is
appropriately named. There were about six other Native Americans
in the lodge with me. There was a large central sweat lodge ceremony
taking place simultaneously with ours in Canada. The master sweat
was being conducted my Yellowhawk's son who was the Grand Chief
of the Canadian Sioux Nation. They were communicating telepathically.
They sang chants and played drums. Then Yellowhawk told me it was
time for my part in the ceremony. He told me this was very powerful
medicine and I was to not open my eyes. He was chanting and I
could hear him moving about but I kept my eyes closed.
I felt a literal shock in my spine that forced me sit
up straight. I was then told to open my eyes.
Yellowhawk said that he, the Grand Chief
and the elders had seen all of my actions
and experiences in the Vietnam War.
They I was a great man and they then invited
me to be adopted into the Sioux Nation. I accepted.
They gave me the Sioux name of Wambali Iskma which in
English means "Eagles Wing". I did actually feel many freedoms
from my PTSD for months following the ceremony. I am very grateful
and honored by everyone involved who felt I was worthy of
such a great honor. I will never forget it. Thank you.
Prayer of a Vietnam Veteran
Dear Jesus and my Heavenly Father above
Creator of all things and source of all love
There are lots of things I want and need to say
But for right now please just get me through today
Amen
David Rose - Vietnam Veteran - Combat Medic
Creator of all things and source of all love
There are lots of things I want and need to say
But for right now please just get me through today
Amen
David Rose - Vietnam Veteran - Combat Medic
Sunday, June 1, 2014
Through Tender Mercy
I have been reading this text all my life
Didn't apply it to the life I had known
Now that I have developed all this strife
I can now apply it to a need of my own
Luke 1:78-79
78 Through the tender mercy of our God,
whereby the dayspring from on high hath visited us,
79 To give light to them that sit in darkness and in the shadow of death,
to guide our feet into the way of peace.
David Rose
Didn't apply it to the life I had known
Now that I have developed all this strife
I can now apply it to a need of my own
Luke 1:78-79
78 Through the tender mercy of our God,
whereby the dayspring from on high hath visited us,
79 To give light to them that sit in darkness and in the shadow of death,
to guide our feet into the way of peace.
David Rose
One Doctor's Diagnosis
I'm not stressed because I have PTSD,
I have PTSD because I'm stressed.
David Rose
Inspired by Dr. Burress
I have PTSD because I'm stressed.
David Rose
Inspired by Dr. Burress
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